By popular request: May’s first steps!

February 28, 2013 at 22:13

Mama Lewis

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2010 photo of May I used in the speech

Today, I received an emailed bulletin from BabyCenter. Subject: Is your baby walking?

It landed in my inbox because my baby, Ieuan, turned one only two weeks ago. He is like any one-year old, more of a toddler now than a baby. Crawling everywhere. Standing on shaky legs, with a big grin on his face and one small step away from delicious trouble.

And, that’s wonderful. That’s exactly how it is supposed to be.

But, I have another child. My daughter, May, who is also a “toddler” though she has never toddled. She is three.

May is severely brain-damaged. After she was born, the only things the doctors could be sure that she would ever be able to do was pee and breathe. Pee and breathe.

How did I deal with that information? I didn’t really. On so many levels, I didn’t. I love her dearly, but I’m not one of those mothers who has a disabled child and would never change a thing about her. I would. In an instant, in a heartbeat. My heart. I’d give up my heart.

For one single, wobbly step. I’d give up my heart for her to be able to feel the world move beneath her feet. For her to control her life that little bit. For her to propel herself. Independently. One step. I would give her my heart.

The BabyCenter email I received said, “Your baby’s first steps– this is huge. It’s exciting to watch your new walker’s bowlegged locomotion, but it’s equally fun to see the look on your baby’s face: part surprise, part joy, part holy-moly-I-can’t-believe-I’m-really-doing-this.”

The video below was taken yesterday. It shows May about 45 seconds after being strapped into a walker for the very first time. Walking is not a miracle for May. It is three years of work, devotion, heartbreak and fury (and fun too, let’s not forget the best part) – all that went into every step. That is no miracle.

Holy-moly-I-can’t-believe-this-is-happening.

May, I give you my heart.

SIDE NOTE:

This post is here at the request of the medical community – I love that, it makes me sound so important. By request, I mean the tiniest bit of encouragement from the doctors I gave a speech to tonight to the Barts and London/ Queen Mary Neurological Society. It doesn’t take much to convince this mama to share a post and video of May!

You can also see an additional BONUS footage here on my post Walking and giggling: That’s how we do it!

I hope you enjoyed it. And, a huge thank you to Anna Nagy who invited me along to speak and all the doctors. Your perspectives are so interesting!

11 Comments

  1. anna nagy February 28, 2013 Reply

    such a fantastic video (though may was great in slow motion too..) was lovely to have you speak tonight, thanks so much for coming down x

    • Mama Lewis March 1, 2013 Reply

      I really enjoyed it! Thanks for inviting me!

  2. Nush February 28, 2013 Reply

    Dear Mama Lewis!
    It was SO great to meet you today! Thank you so much for re-posting this! Your talk was such an inspiration for a new generation of doctors who can hopefully learn something from all your experience! we are so grateful that you made the time to visit us. Please look out for some pictures coming soon at www.qmblneurosoc.com. It was an absolute pleasure to meet you and many many thanks and cuddles to May for being such a photographic sensation!

  3. Kara March 1, 2013 Reply

    Such a beautiful post. Sebastian loves walking in his walker. There is a sense of freedom, independence and control. I accept Sebastian for who he is, but if he didn't have cp, that would be awesome. If he could use his hands to play with toys, definitely. Have you seen his video for filmpossible.ca contest? SebCanDo.

  4. Ellen Lewis March 1, 2013 Reply

    Stacie & Gareth, Loved to see your blog and watching May walk again is always wonderful to see and a true joy! We hope your speech went well and as always, we are very proud of you!! Love, Ellen & Dad

  5. Victoria Fonseca March 2, 2013 Reply

    Yay for May! I adore the look on her face! What an achievement. I am so happy for you all. I was going to say that I have missed May's cultural musings in "Yes May, but is it?" but clearly you have been busy with more important things.

    • Mama Lewis March 3, 2013 Reply

      It has been so long since I asked May about art! I have to do one soon - thanks for reminding me. They are my favorite posts to write.

  6. luda G March 6, 2013 Reply

    what a lovely video,go May! I've been reading you since 2011 and have really enjoyed watching May grow xoxo

  7. Sarah March 24, 2013 Reply

    I still love watching this

    • Mama Lewis March 24, 2013 Reply

      hahaha - How many times do you think I've watched it???

  8. Ellen Lewis March 25, 2013 Reply

    Just watched the video AGAIN! Love it and all of you too!!!! May is awesome!!!

    Love, Ellen Ruth

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